Weigh In Wednesday

Weight: 201
Up 1.2 since last week. Down 22 overall. My joy about being under 200 was fleeting. I have no one to blame but myself. I threw all caution to the wind in regards to eating over the last week. I didn't do the salads. This weekend I ate way too much food and drank way too many beers. I was really upset this morning but I think it has passed. I am managing to maintain this month and I guess that's what is important. I am frustrated, though, because I used to eat so much more and now I'm hungry and the scale isn't moving and sometimes I honestly feel like saying "f" it.
August 2 - 200.8
August 9 - 200.8
August 16 - 199.8

Lifetime Steps: 3,730,192
That's 81,283 since last week which averages out to 11,612 steps a day. I was 263 steps shy of 10K on Friday. I didn't get my lunch walk because I was home having my water softener repaired and then I had the kids and did grocery shopping and had date night with Husband. I could have done a lap around the block but didn't. It's that simple right? I could have done more.

Frame of Mind
Casey's school started last Wednesday so we have homework in the evenings again. He got off the soccer wait list on Friday and I spent all weekend trying to get his payment squared away because they had technical errors on their new registration. Monday things finally got cleared up but I got a text that morning that I had to go out that night and buy gear for practice starting Tuesday and Thursday evenings. Of course practice starts at 5 so I have to make arrangements to leave work early. Doesn't everyone work until 5? I don't get it. And we basically have every Saturday until November committed to games now so that will change our weekend dynamic.
Casey's birthday is tomorrow so tonight I need to figure out what treat he is going to bring to his classmates. I also think I need to leave work early tomorrow to pick him up and get homework done before practice followed by Chuck E Cheese (kill me now). I'm trying to make arrangements for a weekend away and am not sure I have Friday night covered. I dropped the ball and forgot to mail my niece's birthday card. I feel like I am more disorganized this year than ever before and it's making me kind of nervous and anxious and I don't love it. Thank God Christa isn't in any other program than daycare or I might just lose my mind.
So! That just means I need to recommit to my schedule. Get better about meal prep. Try harder to get those steps. Seriously consider a sober September. When I type this it sounds like I don't have a Husband to help me but his work schedule is just dumb plus he is working hard at getting his masters degree in his spare time. He walks Casey to school every morning and helps out after dinner a whole bunch. It's just a lot goes on while he's in the basement of a hospital in another city or buried in homework. I'm optimistic that his 2nd interview for a new job goes well on the 29th! He's first in the running. Hopefully his schedule will coincide with mine a little better than it has since Christa was born.
And that is my life in a nutshell. I realize I am too hard on myself. I know I need to work harder on saying no. It would be beneficial if I could lock myself into some "chill" mode. Hopefully having soccer commitments and summer being over will hit our reset button. We don't need to do all the things all the time. We can just sit at home. It is allowed. DEEP BREATH. EXHALE.


Weekend Pics

 Friday afternoon I worked from my porch to not get in the way of the cleaning ladies and had my water softener repaired and hung out with my hummingbird friends.
 Friday night date night with Husband at Institution with some Sequence.
 Camarillo Ranch House lookin' all spooky at night.
 Unexpected El Segundo Car Show
 My small friend Joz
 Me & My Hair Twin
 Sunday Sand Crabs
 There were so many and they were so big! 
 Casey's crack
Christa feeding me sand cakes


Haiku Friday

Saw a homeless man
But I didn't have any change
I did have an egg
Asked "Are you hungry?"
He said "Yes" so I gave him
My extra hard boiled
I wonder if he
Thought I gave him a raw egg
I can't help but laugh


Book Review

When Husband and I went to see Jim Breuer do stand-up at Levity Live in Oxnard, he said he'd take pictures after the show if we bought his book. He also said if we didn't want to buy the book, he'd take the money for the a picture and give you a free copy of his book. Always one for a meet and greet, we bought the book (which he signed) and took the picture. I just finished reading I'm Not High and I can honestly I'm not mad I paid twice the going rate for it. It also helps that I started listening to his podcast "The Metal In Me" and minutes into the first episode I listened to, he was singing Oxnard's praises.
The book itself is a collection of about twenty short stories. He talks about his childhood, breaking into stand-up, his time on SNL, being a movie star, falling in love and taking care of his elderly father. However, what I liked most, was his open and honest discussion of his spirituality. He spoke of the many times he felt God was giving him signs and making things happen around him. I'm not overly religious but I can relate to those feelings and it was refreshing to read someone who might be seen as just a goofball comedian talk about how a higher power might be involved and guiding your life. His chapter on Chris Farley's tragic end of life really moved me. This is the last of my two "stand up comedian" books but I'm glad I read them back to back. The world could use more funny and nice stories right now. I know I can.


Weigh In Wednesday

You see that there? 199.8! I'm under 200! I reached a goal! Down 23.2 lbs overall, 1 pound since last week. I am so happy about this. So happy. 9.8 lbs to go to reach my drivers license weight!

Lifetime Steps: 3,648,909
That's 79,794 since last week which averages out to be 11,399 steps a day. I was killing the steps during the week and this weekend I sort of lost my mojo. Saturday short 3,379; Sunday short 2,255; Yesterday short 1,984. Not sure I have many excuses for that. I did some swimming on Saturday. Sunday we went to the Zoo. Yesterday we went to the beach. Sometimes I prefer naps over walks. What can I say? On Monday, I did notice I was just shy a few and threw Christa in her stroller and we did a walk. She likes to go far and tell me to run. My wee coach.
Frame of Mind
I feel like I'm in a pretty good place. I mean, this bullshit with 45 and the white supremacists is really ruining things for me in a mental health aspect but life is good. I took half days on Monday and Tuesday to hang with the kids which was nice. I didn't do much in the way of meal prep this week for work lunches and I have been drinking too much lately. Husband and I had a good chat on Monday about getting back on the right track. I'm not going buck-wild right now but I'll commit to recommitting to my diet on Monday. I'm all set to get back to lunch walks today. Just trying to do my best.


Weekend Pics

 Friends came over for pizza on Friday night.
 Mama got a Christa makeover on Saturday morning.
 Seahorse Death Race
Before she turned purple. Where were you, sun?
 Sunday morning cuddle puddle.
 Zoo with Gaga. Pictures on Flickr, too.
Long naps. Chill weekend. 


Haiku Friday

We have zero plans
Nowhere to go or to be
What a great feeling!
If the weather's nice
Maybe the beach or the pool
Just a goal to chill
No more summer camp
Back to boring routine land
That's my favorite place


Weigh In Wednesday

Weight: 200.8
No gain or loss which is pretty awesome considering I am on my period and it is the day after the fair where I ate my fair share of sugary fried things, washed down with some icy brews. Down 22.2 overall. I have not been trying very hard in regards to dieting or cutting back my drinking this summer. School starts next Wednesday and I feel like that will get me back in the mode. Right now, our weeks are full of fun activities and going out too much so I'm happy to just maintain.

Lifetime Steps: 3,569,115
95,671 since last week so 13,667 per day average. This is more like it. Yesterday at the fair I chalked up a big ol' 16,787 steps. I exceeded my 10k step daily goal every day since last Wednesday and that is what I'm talking about.

Measurements: (again, unsure about this but glad to see down overall)
Bust 41 (November was 44 so down 3")
Waist 36 (November was 39 so down 3")
Hips 43 (November was 45 so down 2")
Thigh 25 (November was 27 so down 2")
Arm 14 (November was 14 so maintain)

Frame of Mind
I'm excited about some before and after action.  We went to the fair and just looking at the comparison between last year's picture and this year, I can see such a difference in our faces. I compared a picture from September when I got the Fitbit and I just can't believe how my body has changed. I have forty to fifty pounds to lose if I want to be in a "normal" weight range so I need to keep remembering how easy it is to gain this weight back and how hard it is to lose it.
Otherwise, things are good. It's been a very fun summer. I can't complain. I just hope that we don't have a nuclear holocaust on our hands like the news makes it sound like. That would be a huge bummer.


Weekend Pics

 Saturday morning stretch sesh.
 Nice little yard sale find. She screamed a scream I'd not heard before.
 The neighbor dog was watching us make s'mores.
So the kids and I took selfies 
 We're pretty.
 Sunday morning re-commitment to walking.
 Baking with sister.
 Casey chilling in his new chair from Miss Deanna
Christa chilling, too.

On Saturday morning, Husband and I helped a friend move for like 4 hours. We did all the heavy lifting and it really took a toll on me. I chilled super hard for the rest of the weekend, finally. I committed to leisure and it was worth it 100%. Today I was trying to commit to fitness and losing weight and being good but I'm on my period and eating cookies for breakfast instead. Hope I can turn it around.


Haiku Friday

The weekend is here
I can't believe it's August
One week left of camp
It has been so warm
I don't like humidity
Sticky and sweaty
Not too much planned out
Helping a friend move, swimming
Drinking lots of beer


Book Review

For my birthday, Christine bought me Bert Kreischer's "Life of the Party" because she came with me to see him perform in January and clearly was listening as I repeatedly expressed my love for him during the show. I am ashamed that it has been almost two months since I finished my last book but I'm glad I have been slowly reading these stories all this time. I've been laughing a lot at his stories that meander between being the inspiration for Van Wilder thanks to an article in Rolling Stone to his stand-up years and becoming a married man and a father. What I didn't expect, however, was to have finished the book with actual tears in my eyes, blowing my nose into a Kleenex. I guess that's why I love the guy.
Some of his stories I'd heard before on podcasts and during his performance. Others were stories about the celebrities he's crossed paths with over the years. All of them, though, were were well written and engaging. I am anxious to loan this out to everyone after my husband uses it for potty reading. You've been warned.


Weigh In Wednesday Addendum

Thought I'd review my monthly loss since I started tracking in November because I thought it would be a good way to keep a record. It's nice to see I have been consistent with overall loss and that the fluctuations are not out of the norm.

11/2 - 222
11/9 - 221.8
11/16 - 221.2
11/23 - 220.4
11/30 - 219.2
Total Monthly Loss: 2.8 lbs

12/7 - 220
12/14 - 220
12/21 - 219.8
12/28 - 217.8
Total Monthly Loss: 2.2 lbs

1/4 - 217
1/11 - 215.2
1/18 - 216.8
1/25 - 215.8
Total Monthly Loss: 1.2 lbs

2/8 - 214.6
2/15 - 214.2
2/22 - 212
Total Monthly Loss: 2.6 lbs

3/1 - 213.8
3/8 - 213.8
3/15 - 211
3/22 - 210
3/29 - 208.4
Total Monthly Loss: 5.4 lbs

4/5 - 207.6
4/12 - 207.2
4/19 - 206
4/26 - 206
Total Monthly Loss: 1.6 lbs

5/3 - 205.6
5/10 - 204.8
5/17 - 203
5/24 - 205.6
5/31 - 204
Total Monthly Loss: 1.6 lbs

6/7 - 203.8
6/14 - 201.6
6/21 - 202.4
6/28 - 203
Total Monthly Loss: 0.8 lbs

7/5 - 202.6
7/12 - 201.6
7/19 - 201.4
7/26 - 201.4
Total Monthly Loss: 1.2 lbs

Weight In Wednesday

Weight: 200.8
Down .6 since last week and 22.2 overall. I didn't do measurements this morning so I'll do them next week. I noticed my pants are feeling looser. That's nice. I haven't exactly been super diet conscious lately. I need to try harder. I didn't drink on Monday night and I think that was the same as last week? Yesterday, however, I went to visit BFF who is recovering from surgery and we had celebratory drinks and pizza and on the way home I overindulged in a thing called brownie brittle that I never need to have again ever. Amen. Unless PMS ruins everything, I hope to be under 200 by next week. Please and thank you.

Lifetime Steps: 3,473,444
That's 71,795 since last week which averages to 10,256/day. This is not great. I did not hit my goal on Friday (2,180 short), Saturday (2,938 short), Sunday (1,857 short) or yesterday (449 short). No bueno. Friday I had a doctor's appointment and picked the kids up early so no walk. Saturday and Sunday were sort of lazy meandering days and I didn't make the time to go for a walk and instead napped both days for a long time. Yesterday I drove down to LA and back and spent a lot of time on the couch chatting with my bestie. I was going to be lazy again but after dinner I loaded Sis in the stroller and we took a nice little walk together where I got a good sweat going thanks to the humidity and I felt better because I chose not to be lazy. Choosing is a big part of all this.

Frame of Mind
My Fitbit is sort of broken and it is frustrating me while I wait for my replacement. It is not recording my active steps and it won't sync and I have become aware of how addicted I am to this little piece of technology. My head doesn't seem like it is in the game in regards to my diet other than when I am at work. I'm struggling with not drinking during the week but I will say it has gotten much better than the 3 drinks a night I used to drink. I've been snacking after dinner and I'm not going to get where I want to be if I don't buckle down. At least our Blue Apron dinners have us eating healthy goodness.
In real life? I'm stoked I got to see BFF yesterday and see that she is recovering so well. I was super worried and now I feel like I don't have to be because she is a warrior princess. On Friday I got the diagnosis that I have ringworm and I'm bummed about that but whatever, I have cream and this too shall pass and whatever. School starts in two weeks and I welcome being back in our regular routine again. I love my family and my job is great and I have no complaints other than whatever the eff is going on in Washington DC so I guess I consider myself hashtagblessed.
See how good she looks? And how happy we are?