Up 1.2 since last week. Down 22 overall. My joy about being under 200 was fleeting. I have no one to blame but myself. I threw all caution to the wind in regards to eating over the last week. I didn't do the salads. This weekend I ate way too much food and drank way too many beers. I was really upset this morning but I think it has passed. I am managing to maintain this month and I guess that's what is important. I am frustrated, though, because I used to eat so much more and now I'm hungry and the scale isn't moving and sometimes I honestly feel like saying "f" it.
August 9 - 200.8
August 16 - 199.8
Lifetime Steps: 3,730,192
That's 81,283 since last week which averages out to 11,612 steps a day. I was 263 steps shy of 10K on Friday. I didn't get my lunch walk because I was home having my water softener repaired and then I had the kids and did grocery shopping and had date night with Husband. I could have done a lap around the block but didn't. It's that simple right? I could have done more.
Frame of Mind
Casey's school started last Wednesday so we have homework in the evenings again. He got off the soccer wait list on Friday and I spent all weekend trying to get his payment squared away because they had technical errors on their new registration. Monday things finally got cleared up but I got a text that morning that I had to go out that night and buy gear for practice starting Tuesday and Thursday evenings. Of course practice starts at 5 so I have to make arrangements to leave work early. Doesn't everyone work until 5? I don't get it. And we basically have every Saturday until November committed to games now so that will change our weekend dynamic.
Casey's birthday is tomorrow so tonight I need to figure out what treat he is going to bring to his classmates. I also think I need to leave work early tomorrow to pick him up and get homework done before practice followed by Chuck E Cheese (kill me now). I'm trying to make arrangements for a weekend away and am not sure I have Friday night covered. I dropped the ball and forgot to mail my niece's birthday card. I feel like I am more disorganized this year than ever before and it's making me kind of nervous and anxious and I don't love it. Thank God Christa isn't in any other program than daycare or I might just lose my mind.
So! That just means I need to recommit to my schedule. Get better about meal prep. Try harder to get those steps. Seriously consider a sober September. When I type this it sounds like I don't have a Husband to help me but his work schedule is just dumb plus he is working hard at getting his masters degree in his spare time. He walks Casey to school every morning and helps out after dinner a whole bunch. It's just a lot goes on while he's in the basement of a hospital in another city or buried in homework. I'm optimistic that his 2nd interview for a new job goes well on the 29th! He's first in the running. Hopefully his schedule will coincide with mine a little better than it has since Christa was born.
And that is my life in a nutshell. I realize I am too hard on myself. I know I need to work harder on saying no. It would be beneficial if I could lock myself into some "chill" mode. Hopefully having soccer commitments and summer being over will hit our reset button. We don't need to do all the things all the time. We can just sit at home. It is allowed. DEEP BREATH. EXHALE.