Haiku Friday

 Legendary show
Adam Lambert fronting Queen
At Hollywood Bowl
 Doctor Brian May
Taking a huge crowd selfie
We were not worthy
 Freddie Mercury
Would have been so proud of this
Show that made me weep


Cars 3

On Saturday the whole family went to the first showing of Cars 3. Remember when a matinee was the cheap show? Now it's $30 for the four of us to go to the movies unless it's the bargain day on Sunday. Then it was another $30 for snacks. See why I want to stay home? Ha! I'm not crazy about sequels as a rule but we go way back with Cars. My nephew was obsessed when he was small. My son would carry three little cars (Lightning, Chick "Cacheega" Hicks and The King) with him everywhere we went for at least a year and God forbid one of those suckers went missing because it would be all hands on deck to make sure he was reunited with "the big 3."
In this installment, Lightning McQueen is feeling his age. New technology is passing him by and while he's still considered a legend, he's an old timer now. He is in a bad wreck during one of his races and after his rehabilitation he decides he is going to try for the career comeback that his mentor, Doc Hudson, was denied. He is hooked up with a state of the art training facility that his sponsor runs and gets a trainer but when that doesn't seem to get him where he wants to go, he ends up taking a stroll down memory lane to reignite his passion. In his quest to be on top again, he learns that his best bet of continuing his legacy is to become a mentor himself. And lo, he passes the reins to newcomer Cruz Ramirez, his trainer who never got the shot to be the racer she always dreamed to be.
The purpose of this movie seemed to be this hand off to a female successor so that a new generation of kids - most likely girls - can keep this franchise going. While we all enjoyed it, the nearly two hour running time definitely could have been a bit more finely tuned to cut some of the drag we felt watching it. The new characters that were introduced were likable but not particularly memorable or even very special. That being said, when Cruz Ramirez won her race, Christa jumped out of her seat and cheered. So there you have it. I think this could have been a direct-to-DVD release but I'm not certain it even warranted the price of a matinee admission. Maybe that's why my Facebook check-in magically disappeared...
And on a side note, Christa insisted she get her picture taken 
next to the poster of her favorite movie of all time after the show.


Weigh In Wednesday

Weight: 203
Up .6 since last week, down 20 overall. Not exactly thrilled with this because I feel totally stuck but not exactly surprised. Really trying not to be defined by my weight. I'm feeling much more fit since this time last year and I just need to keep on keeping on.

Lifetime Steps: 3,094,339
That's 85,402 since last week, averaging 12,200 steps a day. On Friday I was short 2,114 steps because I missed my lunch walk in order to get Christa from school and take naps together. On Sunday I was short 488 steps because I was in LA and didn't walk and didn't care. I had cleaned the house in the morning and then spent like 3 hours in the car so I wasn't exactly motivated to get there at the end of a long day. However, I more than made up for that on Monday when I hit 17,400 steps in one day. That's an all-time best for me. I guess navigating the Hollywood Bowl is quite a workout. That and dancing my butt off to Queen.
Frame of Mind
Where do I even start? It has been quite warm around these parts lately and that stinks for me because I am a fragile flower that wilts in the heat. I have not been doing well with the not drinking during the week thing. I may have made it 2 days last week. This week, no such luck thus far and the future doesn't look great. I am looking at the calendar and thinking July would be a fine time to reboot the ol' fitness/diet program. That is a solid six months to close out 2017 strong and maybe check in with the doctor in January to see if my numbers have improved.
Every few months I have to lay the hammer down on the family because I start feeling overworked and underappreciated. Kind of had to lose my shit yesterday so I have a bad feeling sort of hangover today. I need to delegate better and stop spoiling my spouse and children so much so they can chip in a little more. This has a lot to do with me being sort of OCD and wanting things done a certain way so I will need to meditate on that for a bit.
Things have just been so busy lately and I really want to slow down and refocus. I'm trying to put us on house arrest for July and August. Help get our budget back on track and also just kind of chill out. I keep saying that and we keep going out. We're YOLO all over the place. Cooking at home seems to help. I'm looking forward to more beach and pool time this summer. I believe we can do this.


Weekend Pics

 Tried a new-ish Oxnard brewery called Casa Agria.
Mainly sours. We will try again when IPAs are on tap.
 Topper's Pizza Party
 Christa and Mabel have been thick as thieves lately. 
 Betty is my big dinosaur puppy that lays on my tummy.
 Casey's topless pinata play.
 Christa killing that stance. Super fun celebrating Sasha turning 7!


Haiku Friday

First week of Summer
Casey's better at camp now
Christa loves her school
The apple business
Is so slow when school is out
Taking a half day
Celebrate tonight
A great report card arrived
Pizza party, y'all


Weigh In Wednesday

Weight: 202.4
Up .8 since last week. These fluctuations don't even bother me anymore. I see the scale shift sometimes three pounds during the week. Still down 20.6 lbs overall. I'd like to see that number go down but it would mean a lot more restraint and a lot more effort and I'm not sure I have it in me. I like the accountability of this weekly check-in. I feel like my own private Weight Watchers. The Fit-bit challenges are also keeping me motivated, even if I'm not super fired up like I was.

Lifetime Steps: 3,008,937
That's 81,488 since last week which averages out to 11,641 steps a day. Best day was Saturday June 17 with 15,320 steps. I was short 3,469 steps yesterday because I was invited to a Rotary Club lunch by my neighbor so I didn't get my lunch walk in. I'd had every intention of walking last night but my knees were sore and I just wanted to sit down. I think it was due to the steep inclines and descents of the hike on Father's Day that I'm not quite used to. It's hikes like those that really make me appreciate that 20 pounds I lost. Nothing wrong with one "rest day" a week.

Frame of Mind
I'm getting over a doozy of a head cold so maybe that's why I'm not really feeling this whole dieting/fitness thing right now. Casey started camp on Monday and when I went to pick him up I had to sign a form acknowledging he was not listening, was not keeping his hands to himself, and standing up on the moving bus. If that behavior continues, he could be suspended or expelled. He had such a great school year with awards for accelerated reading and Student of the Month and then that happened and it sort of made me feel disappointed and sad. It's the first time he has had to be grounded and I know it's not the last. He seems to be turning it around so maybe it was just the excitement of summer but yeah, it took a toll on me and made me feel like a failure as a mom.
On the flip side, Christa started preschool and she is loving it. No tears and tons of enthusiasm. I'm very excited to see her start her journey of being a big kid. Work is great but very slow so it's rough during the summer trying to pass the time. I should be filling that time with something other than social media and the news but I haven't quite gotten there yet. We're on week three of Blue Apron and I am really enjoying cooking the meals that are quite tasty and definitely not meals I'd make otherwise. The drinking during the week thing seems to be the big challenge. I made it M,T,W last week and I'm two days down this week. Husband is pretty gangster about this stuff and is talking about limiting our "cheat days" to one night a week and I just kind of miss being chubby and drunk with him sometimes but obviously this is much better.


Wonder Woman

On Friday afternoon, Gaga and I took the kids to see Wonder Woman to celebrate the last day of school. I will probably be lynched by feminists by saying this, but this wasn't a movie I was really rushing out to see. In the DC world, Batman is my main man but I'm more of a Marvel gal. However, I know the importance of this being a female leading a superhero movie and I was stoked to expose the kids. Plus, my mom is deeply in love with Chris Pine so everyone was a winner that day.
I know this shouldn't be what I lead with but ohmyg is Gal Gadot the most beautiful woman on earth? Her features were captivating and mesmerizing and she had me entranced from the jump. I loved the way Wonder Woman started with Diana as a wee lass. Greek mythology has always been so interesting to me because when I was in elementary school, my enrichment reading teacher made it a point to really immerse us in the gods and goddesses. Ask Husband! I kill on Jeopardy! It was so kick ass to see all those bad ass Amazons training for battle like bosses. Very cool.
The movie itself may have not exactly been great for the kids but they really liked all her fighting with the sword and lasso. The World War II backstory was a bit dark and hard for them to really understand, same with Captain America. It upset them to see the death and destruction but the reality is this is our history and our world. I don't think it's bad for them to be exposed to all of that, it just isn't an easy thing to sit through in the movie theater. Chris Pine's character was so brave and charismatic. The side characters were all so entertaining. My mom and I sobbed through the ending but I also got crazy choked up with pride and awe watching Diana bravely cross a battle field. Empowerment, indeed. So now I will insist that if you are a female, see this movie. Males, sure. But women? I insist.


Haiku Catch-up & Weekend Pics

Super fun weekend
Friday was Casey's last day
Of first grade. Crazy.
His classroom performed
I took the day off to hang
A nice three day break
Father's Day was great
We really tried to chill hard
And we nailed it, bro!
 First day vs last day. Big Kid.
 Casey was a snake and told us the life cycles.
 Chillin' so hard in the yard.
 S'mores for no reason is summer defined.
 Before the boat boarded.
 On the boat ride home.
 My son the weirdo.
My daughter the weirdo.

I took a bazillion pictures that can be found here. I love my new camera. I can't recommend going out to the islands enough. More info can be found here. It was so easy, reasonably priced and breathtakingly memorable. We got to see humpbacks and a rarely spotted blue whale. We saw dolphins for days. The island foxes were so cute. It was amazing. I simply can't say anything in words that the pictures won't tell you. Awesome.


Weigh In Wednesday

Weight: 201.6
That is down 2.2 lbs since last week and 21.4 overall. My period just ended and I just want to give a big "F You" to bloating and PMS. I'm 65% on my way to being back at my drivers licence weight of 190 from when I started. I'm so dang close to being under 200. Feels real nice. My sister-in-law even commented on how I looked good and that is really saying something.

Lifetime Steps: 2,927,449
That's 75,426 since last week which averages to 10,775 steps a day. I did not wear my fitbit much on Sunday because we spent all day in the pool and it was a perfectly wonderful rest day spent in my brother's backyard that I don't regret one bit. We also drove all over Southern California this weekend so there's that. On Monday I was shy 1,988 steps but I had gone grocery shopping during my lunch hour and had to spend the evening meal prepping our lunches and making dinner and doing all the tidying and laundry I usually spend the weekend doing so I couldn't muster a walk. I had a picnic with Casey yesterday during lunch that negated my walk time and felt like blowing off another day of walking but I didn't! After dinner I threw Christa in her stroller and we did my big neighborhood lap for almost an hour and I hit those steps like a boss. Can't stop, won't stop!

Frame of Mind
Without a doubt, last week was not a good one overall. I can blame some of that on my period, I suppose. We've also had very little downtime and our regularly scheduled programming has been severely interrupted lately. With Casey starting camp and Christa starting preschool, our budget will be very tight so I'm optimistic July and August will be good months to lay real low. Beaches and pools and parks and hikes and free activities. Jot that down.
Sunday on the long drive home, while the kids were passed out in the back seat, Husband and I had a powwow about how far we've come in this weight-loss journey we are on together and we made some steps to re-commit to better behavior. We are on week two of Blue Apron and it is just great. It's a perfect serving size of fresh and natural ingredients with hardly any additives and gives us the variety that was severely lacking in our dinners. Damn, I should be getting paid for advertising, right?! We're doing that three times a week and I think it will definitely help us eat healthier and less. We're still doing our salads four times a week and I'm very conscious of the eating I do at work. I'm two nights down not drinking during the week this week with two to go! I'm back to really trying not to snack after dinner. I noticed this weekend I eat much less (but drink way more) and snack much less than I used to.
Sometimes, it seems, I just need to remember to live day by day. To breathe. To remember inevitably things will just work out, because really they almost always do. I need to realize my kids will only be small and needy for a bit longer and to be more patient with them. That it's okay for my house to be a mess. Anxiety is a bitch, y'all.


Weekend Pics

 The boys playing cornhole while the birthday girl stands witness 
and the photographer gets squint wrinkles.
 Christa and the birthday girl taking a bath
 Casey's happy place with his camera shy cousin
 Husband being ridiculous
 My favorite bathing beauties
 Me, nailing this whole R&R thing 
 SIL & I in our unintentional matching swimsuits
 Sophia the Worst
Saying goodbye to Uncle Fuzzyface. I admit I cried this time leaving my brother. 
I'm homesick for him and it's nice to miss him. We had such a great visit. 
We got home in record time, no traffic, with a beautiful sunset.


Haiku Friday

Silly old Randi
Thinking June would be so chill
Absolutely not
School is out next week
Casey's camp, Christa's preschool
Start on Six Nineteen
Adios, money!
Poverty will force us to
Chill out in July


The Girl on the Train

As was likely evident from yesterday's post, I was not feeling great. Around noon I decided that I needed quiet and I needed rest so I took some sick time and went home. I tried to nap but was unsuccessful. Instead, I found myself finishing off the last half of The Girl on the Train. I read it on the Kindle so that was weird but it shows I can do it. I think I'll alternate between killing a book off the shelf and using that electronic device to get used to the technology that is taking over. I'd also really like to try to read more than a book a month if I can because I really do believe reading is good for your soul.
This book is mainly about a lady named Rachel who is really down on her luck and is a hot mess. Her marriage fell apart because she was barren and turned to alcohol for comfort while her husband turned to another woman. She is an unemployed alcoholic who takes the train in and out of the city so her roommate doesn't grow suspicious that she's a total disaster. On her commute, she witnesses something that may be pertinent to the investigation of a local crime. However, those pesky booze induced blackouts and that whole unreliable drunk status definitely makes things more complicated.
The story bounces between three women narrating: Rachel, Megan, the murder victim and Anna, the other woman who is currently married to Rachel's ex-husband. I found that slightly confusing at first because I'm terrible with names but the perspective of the three women casts seeds of doubt about what is really going on. One minute, you're convinced you know who the killer is until one of them talks about a suspect and completely changes your mind. The men in the book are all a little bit shady so it's hard to pinpoint whodunit. I really liked this book and if you read Gone Girl, there's a pretty good chance you'll like it, too. I'd be interested to see what the movie is all about.


Weigh In Wednesday

Weight: 203.8
Down .2 since last week, down 19.2 overall. Considering on May 24 I was up to 205.6, I feel okay with this number. I am also waiting for my period to arrive any day now and am in the throes of PMS so the fact that I'm not knee deep in cookies and ice cream is an accomplishment in and of itself. I had a beer last night because boy was it a rough one but I'm really trying to not drink during the week under normal circumstances. Back to lots of fruits and veggies during the day and eating less at dinner time with no snacking afterward though we did have some cake last night for no reason and I certainly didn't pass so there's that.
Sometimes I take potty selfies for Husband as a joke and this is one where I feel smokin' hot and curvy
so I'm putting this here to offset all the bad monster feelings I am having currently. The End.

Measurements June vs May 
Bust 39.5 vs 40 (November was 44 so down 4")
Waist 36 vs 36 (November was 39 so down 3")
Hips 42 vs 42.5 (November was 45 so down 2.5")
Thigh 24.5 vs 24 (November was 27 so down 3")
Arm 13 vs 13 (November was 14 so down 1")
Total loss: 13.5"

Lifetime Steps: 2,852,023
That's 87,164 since last week which averages out to 12,452 steps a day. I missed my step goal twice. On Wednesday May 31, I missed by 98 steps. I had training and didn't get my lunch walk so after work I put Christa in the stroller (and ran!) and tried to play catch up before my work dinner and lo, I didn't give a rat's behind about making that wristband buzz after such a big day. On Sunday June 4, I missed by 2,484 steps. The Book of Mormon was the night before and Casey thought it would be best if he woke me up after less than 5 hours of sleep so I spent the day napping and being lazy AF and I don't feel bad about it one bit.

Frame of Mind
Guys, it's just no bueno over here. Had some news last week that sucks balls. Husband is actively pursuing his Masters Degree while working his full-time shift plus lots of call and I'm trying to give him the time he needs to do both things (which means lots of solo time with the kids) but sometimes I am just over it. I find myself feeling overwhelmed by the responsibilities of working full-time, taking care of the household everything, and being a wife and mom simultaneously. Casey's school is wrapping up so I am trying to figure out budgeting for camp with the added expense and paperwork of getting Christa enrolled in day care. Bye, bye cleaning lady! Casey also had a dental "emergency" yesterday and squabbles with his neighbor buddy at least a couple times a week and I just don't need this shit right now. Sometimes I feel like I lose just being Randi.
PMS and anxiety don't help ANY of this and both are quite high currently. To top it off, I have a big, ugly cold sore and I haven't had one in a long time so it's making me feel sad like a dinosaur that I look like a herpasaurus face. My immunity feels low. I feel sluggish and tired and irritable. I'm still forcing myself to walk and eat well but I also would just like to eat a bucket of M&Ms and stay in my pajamas all day and become a hermit. I wish I didn't have the insane desire to have everything in order all the time but it's a part of the quilt-work that is me. Things OBVIOUSLY could be much worse and I get that this is mostly petty but fuck it. It's my petty and this is what's going on.


Captain Underpants

One of my favorite things about Casey being in school is the Scholastic book order. We read before bedtime and I love being able to stock our tiny library bookshelf cheaply with lots of options to rotate through even though the kids seem to stick to a select few that grow to be repetitive. On the last order, Husband selected the Captain Underpants five pack and they read a few chapters every night. How lovely for the movie to coincide with this new reading experience! Casey likes the books but I think Christa just likes any excuse to tell me she is Captain Underpants and will save the day.
The stories are about George and Harold who are elementary school besties that like to prank their teachers and draw comics. They are the creators of Captain Underpants, their very own superhero. In the movie, they hypnotize their super mean principle into believing he is a real life Captain Underpants and chaos ensues. Everyone and their mother does a voice in this movie but Nick Kroll steals the whole show as Professor Poopypants, the villainous science teacher who wants to eliminate the children's laughter. His German accent tickles me so. I found the movie slow to get off the ground but it did eventually get quite silly and fun. The kids really liked it. The animation was great and they even sneaked in a puppet show that was quite original and goofy. Seems like we will be seeing a lot of kids' movies this summer and that's just fine by me. It gets us out of the house so Husband can do homework and I can keep the kids entertained by doing very little. Win win.


Date Night

On Saturday night, we started off the ultimate date night at a spot called Musso and Frank Grill. It's the oldest restaurant in Hollywood and Husband learned of it via podcasts so I decided to just take us there.
It's 98 years old and the menu hasn't changed much. Their cocktail list is just names of cocktails, no description and I found that very quaint. Lots of liver and kidneys for entrees. I had a champagne cocktail and Husband had a rye. He had the filet and I had the Prime Rib and neither is likely to be topped.
Every bite was delicious, the drinks were perfect and the service was impeccable. I highly recommend this indulgence at least once in your life. It was like stepping back in time. The waiters even wore those schooly old red jackets. They print their menus daily so our waiter signed ours and sent us on our way with it.
We walked ten minutes (in heels, both ways) to the theater so Husband could play tourist since he's never really been on Hollywood Blvd. Jim Henson's star was one of the first outside the restaurant.
Ultimate tourist photo at Hollywood & Vine.
We saw The Book of Mormon at the beautifully restored Pantages theater. 
 Lobby ceiling
Outside the entrance to our seats
Row Z, Center Orchestra so our backs were literally against the wall. The show was incredible and 100% worthy of the critical acclaim. The music was great. How insane that the creators of South Park did this!? It's positively vulgar and all the way wrong but I laughed, got goosebumps, teared up... it was a fantastic theater experience.
And I could not get over how smokin' hot we both looked so I insisted some random other theater goer take our picture. Great night with a great spouse. I wish we could do this all the time.


Haiku Friday

What a week, you guys! 
Trained for my new position
Queen Orchard Maiden
I sure like my job
I'm just so much happier
Than at the last place
Hope I don't mess up
But they seem to have some faith
Hooray for new things!