Weigh In Wednesday

Weight: 202.4
Up .8 since last week. These fluctuations don't even bother me anymore. I see the scale shift sometimes three pounds during the week. Still down 20.6 lbs overall. I'd like to see that number go down but it would mean a lot more restraint and a lot more effort and I'm not sure I have it in me. I like the accountability of this weekly check-in. I feel like my own private Weight Watchers. The Fit-bit challenges are also keeping me motivated, even if I'm not super fired up like I was.

Lifetime Steps: 3,008,937
That's 81,488 since last week which averages out to 11,641 steps a day. Best day was Saturday June 17 with 15,320 steps. I was short 3,469 steps yesterday because I was invited to a Rotary Club lunch by my neighbor so I didn't get my lunch walk in. I'd had every intention of walking last night but my knees were sore and I just wanted to sit down. I think it was due to the steep inclines and descents of the hike on Father's Day that I'm not quite used to. It's hikes like those that really make me appreciate that 20 pounds I lost. Nothing wrong with one "rest day" a week.

Frame of Mind
I'm getting over a doozy of a head cold so maybe that's why I'm not really feeling this whole dieting/fitness thing right now. Casey started camp on Monday and when I went to pick him up I had to sign a form acknowledging he was not listening, was not keeping his hands to himself, and standing up on the moving bus. If that behavior continues, he could be suspended or expelled. He had such a great school year with awards for accelerated reading and Student of the Month and then that happened and it sort of made me feel disappointed and sad. It's the first time he has had to be grounded and I know it's not the last. He seems to be turning it around so maybe it was just the excitement of summer but yeah, it took a toll on me and made me feel like a failure as a mom.
On the flip side, Christa started preschool and she is loving it. No tears and tons of enthusiasm. I'm very excited to see her start her journey of being a big kid. Work is great but very slow so it's rough during the summer trying to pass the time. I should be filling that time with something other than social media and the news but I haven't quite gotten there yet. We're on week three of Blue Apron and I am really enjoying cooking the meals that are quite tasty and definitely not meals I'd make otherwise. The drinking during the week thing seems to be the big challenge. I made it M,T,W last week and I'm two days down this week. Husband is pretty gangster about this stuff and is talking about limiting our "cheat days" to one night a week and I just kind of miss being chubby and drunk with him sometimes but obviously this is much better.


Wonder Woman

On Friday afternoon, Gaga and I took the kids to see Wonder Woman to celebrate the last day of school. I will probably be lynched by feminists by saying this, but this wasn't a movie I was really rushing out to see. In the DC world, Batman is my main man but I'm more of a Marvel gal. However, I know the importance of this being a female leading a superhero movie and I was stoked to expose the kids. Plus, my mom is deeply in love with Chris Pine so everyone was a winner that day.
I know this shouldn't be what I lead with but ohmyg is Gal Gadot the most beautiful woman on earth? Her features were captivating and mesmerizing and she had me entranced from the jump. I loved the way Wonder Woman started with Diana as a wee lass. Greek mythology has always been so interesting to me because when I was in elementary school, my enrichment reading teacher made it a point to really immerse us in the gods and goddesses. Ask Husband! I kill on Jeopardy! It was so kick ass to see all those bad ass Amazons training for battle like bosses. Very cool.
The movie itself may have not exactly been great for the kids but they really liked all her fighting with the sword and lasso. The World War II backstory was a bit dark and hard for them to really understand, same with Captain America. It upset them to see the death and destruction but the reality is this is our history and our world. I don't think it's bad for them to be exposed to all of that, it just isn't an easy thing to sit through in the movie theater. Chris Pine's character was so brave and charismatic. The side characters were all so entertaining. My mom and I sobbed through the ending but I also got crazy choked up with pride and awe watching Diana bravely cross a battle field. Empowerment, indeed. So now I will insist that if you are a female, see this movie. Males, sure. But women? I insist.


Haiku Catch-up & Weekend Pics

Super fun weekend
Friday was Casey's last day
Of first grade. Crazy.
His classroom performed
I took the day off to hang
A nice three day break
Father's Day was great
We really tried to chill hard
And we nailed it, bro!
 First day vs last day. Big Kid.
 Casey was a snake and told us the life cycles.
 Chillin' so hard in the yard.
 S'mores for no reason is summer defined.
 Before the boat boarded.
 On the boat ride home.
 My son the weirdo.
My daughter the weirdo.

I took a bazillion pictures that can be found here. I love my new camera. I can't recommend going out to the islands enough. More info can be found here. It was so easy, reasonably priced and breathtakingly memorable. We got to see humpbacks and a rarely spotted blue whale. We saw dolphins for days. The island foxes were so cute. It was amazing. I simply can't say anything in words that the pictures won't tell you. Awesome.


Weigh In Wednesday

Weight: 201.6
That is down 2.2 lbs since last week and 21.4 overall. My period just ended and I just want to give a big "F You" to bloating and PMS. I'm 65% on my way to being back at my drivers licence weight of 190 from when I started. I'm so dang close to being under 200. Feels real nice. My sister-in-law even commented on how I looked good and that is really saying something.

Lifetime Steps: 2,927,449
That's 75,426 since last week which averages to 10,775 steps a day. I did not wear my fitbit much on Sunday because we spent all day in the pool and it was a perfectly wonderful rest day spent in my brother's backyard that I don't regret one bit. We also drove all over Southern California this weekend so there's that. On Monday I was shy 1,988 steps but I had gone grocery shopping during my lunch hour and had to spend the evening meal prepping our lunches and making dinner and doing all the tidying and laundry I usually spend the weekend doing so I couldn't muster a walk. I had a picnic with Casey yesterday during lunch that negated my walk time and felt like blowing off another day of walking but I didn't! After dinner I threw Christa in her stroller and we did my big neighborhood lap for almost an hour and I hit those steps like a boss. Can't stop, won't stop!

Frame of Mind
Without a doubt, last week was not a good one overall. I can blame some of that on my period, I suppose. We've also had very little downtime and our regularly scheduled programming has been severely interrupted lately. With Casey starting camp and Christa starting preschool, our budget will be very tight so I'm optimistic July and August will be good months to lay real low. Beaches and pools and parks and hikes and free activities. Jot that down.
Sunday on the long drive home, while the kids were passed out in the back seat, Husband and I had a powwow about how far we've come in this weight-loss journey we are on together and we made some steps to re-commit to better behavior. We are on week two of Blue Apron and it is just great. It's a perfect serving size of fresh and natural ingredients with hardly any additives and gives us the variety that was severely lacking in our dinners. Damn, I should be getting paid for advertising, right?! We're doing that three times a week and I think it will definitely help us eat healthier and less. We're still doing our salads four times a week and I'm very conscious of the eating I do at work. I'm two nights down not drinking during the week this week with two to go! I'm back to really trying not to snack after dinner. I noticed this weekend I eat much less (but drink way more) and snack much less than I used to.
Sometimes, it seems, I just need to remember to live day by day. To breathe. To remember inevitably things will just work out, because really they almost always do. I need to realize my kids will only be small and needy for a bit longer and to be more patient with them. That it's okay for my house to be a mess. Anxiety is a bitch, y'all.


Weekend Pics

 The boys playing cornhole while the birthday girl stands witness 
and the photographer gets squint wrinkles.
 Christa and the birthday girl taking a bath
 Casey's happy place with his camera shy cousin
 Husband being ridiculous
 My favorite bathing beauties
 Me, nailing this whole R&R thing 
 SIL & I in our unintentional matching swimsuits
 Sophia the Worst
Saying goodbye to Uncle Fuzzyface. I admit I cried this time leaving my brother. 
I'm homesick for him and it's nice to miss him. We had such a great visit. 
We got home in record time, no traffic, with a beautiful sunset.


Haiku Friday

Silly old Randi
Thinking June would be so chill
Absolutely not
School is out next week
Casey's camp, Christa's preschool
Start on Six Nineteen
Adios, money!
Poverty will force us to
Chill out in July


The Girl on the Train

As was likely evident from yesterday's post, I was not feeling great. Around noon I decided that I needed quiet and I needed rest so I took some sick time and went home. I tried to nap but was unsuccessful. Instead, I found myself finishing off the last half of The Girl on the Train. I read it on the Kindle so that was weird but it shows I can do it. I think I'll alternate between killing a book off the shelf and using that electronic device to get used to the technology that is taking over. I'd also really like to try to read more than a book a month if I can because I really do believe reading is good for your soul.
This book is mainly about a lady named Rachel who is really down on her luck and is a hot mess. Her marriage fell apart because she was barren and turned to alcohol for comfort while her husband turned to another woman. She is an unemployed alcoholic who takes the train in and out of the city so her roommate doesn't grow suspicious that she's a total disaster. On her commute, she witnesses something that may be pertinent to the investigation of a local crime. However, those pesky booze induced blackouts and that whole unreliable drunk status definitely makes things more complicated.
The story bounces between three women narrating: Rachel, Megan, the murder victim and Anna, the other woman who is currently married to Rachel's ex-husband. I found that slightly confusing at first because I'm terrible with names but the perspective of the three women casts seeds of doubt about what is really going on. One minute, you're convinced you know who the killer is until one of them talks about a suspect and completely changes your mind. The men in the book are all a little bit shady so it's hard to pinpoint whodunit. I really liked this book and if you read Gone Girl, there's a pretty good chance you'll like it, too. I'd be interested to see what the movie is all about.